So long since I last put a quote in my blog. I remember this from an essay I had written back in Sec 4. Its kinda late now. Should be sleeping, but I'm half way through my holiday homework. Somehow I feel so determined to finish it. I feel like I have finally found a purpose.

At every point of our lives, we set short term goals. Like when I was in primary school, I wanted to get into this certain secondary school, but I missed by two marks. In secondary 2, I wanted to go to 3-5. In secondary 3, I wanted to study IB at ACS(I) after Olevels. By the time I was in secondary 4, I would be content with just getting into a junior college. Then in J1, I was just content with being able to promote. Sometimes, we achieve success with ease, more often we meet with failures. Yet I never knew what was the purpose of my life, what I saw myself doing.

Unlike my other counterparts, I was never a hardworker. Neither do I see myself as intellectually gifted without having to work hard. I have made this far due to the bits and pieces of effort I put in, no matter how insignificant it may be. Then it hit me; if this is my last year in such a screwed up system, why not give it all. Instead of scraping through and simply being content with mediocre, why not try to push further. I know Im probably, quite frankly speaking, the stupidest person in my family, and my parents have the lowest expectation of me than any of my other two siblings. But that is not going to stop me from getting into that course. I will do well enough to land my ass there. When I do....I shall talk then.

Feeling guilty on skipping OGL gathering tomorrow. But time is precious, given there is going to be training almost everyday till orientation. Perhaps I should have just forgone this opportunity and chosen to be a nobody.